Random rant, xmas, bdays, new years

It's amazing how much hate I can have towards a person I don't even know. It truly amazes me. I mean, I don't usually hate anyone or anything. It's a strong word I don't normally throw around with serious meaning, but there's one person right now that I'm really hating on. Like wishing they were dead kind of hate. I know that's bad, but at the same time I have the sick notion of believing it to be understandable and justified. I'm shocked by myself. I really didn't think I could have so much hate towards someone. This is a very weird experience for me...I think typing it all out is helping to a degree...maybe...What I should do though is just get over it. Move on. Forgive and forget. But it's just so hard for me. I guess I'm just so stubborn and bitter and emotional that I'm getting in my own way of not hating and letting it go. I mean there are worst things in life. Right? I dunno. Ugh. Just put on a happy face has been my motto for awhile now. I thought that maybe if I just acted happy I would be happy, but that's not working. Well, maybe it's working temporarily, but then I get reminded and that brings me down again. I kind of hate blogs, computers, and technology in general. Even though I use it on a daily basis, technology has just brought crappiness to my life. And it's ironic that I would then try to use it, meaning this blog, to help me get out my thoughts and try to untangle them. Haha I'm so funny. Well, enough of that.

Christmas Eve aka my mom's birthday, we all went up to the big D and that was good times. All the xmas decor at Dland always makes me warm and fuzzy inside. Then, Christmas Day my mommy made yummy dutch oven pancake and canadian bacon egg cups. It was delicious! Then we opened presents and watched the Disney parade on tv, as usual. I got a bunch of goodies like dvds, cds, and vintage hairstyling books. Then we went over to the La Jolla house and had dinner and more present unwrapping. After the family overload, Megan and I went to Charlie's to watch the end of the Charger game and play boardgames with some the Starbucks/Food Ave peeps. And of course yesterday was Megan's 18th bday. She tried going to Dland with the bf, but it was sold out:( but today she had a party, like I did, at Dave and Buster's with all her friends. So, I guess it's already New Year's Eve. Probably go shopping with Megan and then I'm not sure of my evening plans, but we'll see...

Merry Christmas!!

They're not my cats, but cute cats in santa hats no less :P Merry Christmas!

MmmmMmm...Coca-Cola...

I don't know why, but lately I've started drinking Coke a lot. I'm kinda addicted haha I'm having cravings for it, like tonight. I had my mom and sis pick me up one at Wal-Mart and am drinking it as I type!

So I've had a bit of a cold for the past week. I actually couldn't talk on Sunday, I had to barely whisper everything. My voice is a little better, but I still sound like a man. Today was filled with cookie baking for everyone at the auction and trying to stay warm. It was cold today! Right now I'm under my heater blanket thank goodness. My boss Marylynn got me a super cute Juicy necklace! (pictured above) I love it! It's so me! haha

Anyhoo, Christmas is just a few days away and I can't wait! Tomorrow I'm going to wrap all my presents for my family and watch my favorite Christmas movies with my mom and Megan. Then, unfortunately I have to work at 7pm until close, but then on Thursday the family's going to Disneyland for my mama's birthday! And then it'll be Christmas! YAY!

"I wanna make you close your eyes..."

I'm in love with Dierks Bentley! Last Wednesday, Maria and I went to see him in LA at the Wiltern and it was one of the best times I've had at a concert. I don't know if it was the country music or not feeling like I was going to die in a mosh pit, but it was so much fun! And not to mention Dierks is hooootttt<3333 Maria and I were right in the front of the stage and Dierks even sang to Maria and embarassed her haha but she loved it. Anyway, I'm starting to like country now, which is weird for me, but I don't care!

So this week is finals week. I've already taken my econ and spanish finals and hopefully I'll pass! Tomorrow I've got my art final, which isn't really a final, it's just talking about our piece. And then Wednesday I have my english final and I'll be done! yay!

Dad hung up lights around the house yesterday and Mom's putting lights on the tree right now. It's beginning to feel a lot like christmas! :)

Procrastination is my middle name!

I just love procrastinating by looking at clothing sites and wishing I could buy everything! It just sucks cause there's so much cute stuff I want, but I'm trying to be good and save for someday moving out/my 21st bday Vegas extravaganza. I'm not sure how much it's gonna cost me yet, but I want to go to Las Vegas for my 21st birthday (I know, so original right?). I want to stay at the Venetian for a couple nights, see the Phantom show, and eat at a fancy restaurant. Not sure who would go with me besides Maria, my mom and maybe my sister, but that's kinda a rough plan of what I want to do.

Anyway, back to the procrastination part. I've got a wonderful weekend and coming week filled with an astronomy paper and presentation, work, my final art project, reading for english and econ, my oral exam in spanish, and then of course finals for all my classes the following week.

Oh yeah, I wanted to share the details of my exciting final art project! Basically, we get design our own cd covers to a playlist of 5 songs of our choice. The medium is watercolor and we have to do 4 small paintings(1 for the front, 1 for the back, and 2 for the inside). Mine's kinda a tribute to the late 50's/early 60's and The Beatles. My playlist is "She Does" by Locksley, "I Feel Fine" by The Beatles, "If it were up to me" by Rooney, "Love Me Do" by The Beatles and "All My Loving" the version from the movie Across the Universe. I've already started on my vintage chevy coupe and then I'm going to do a guitar, a record, and then I'm still not sure on the last one. But overall I'm really excited about!